01 OCT 2002 - 8.45a
curse my damn allergies. i could've (should've!) slept longer, but it's hard to sleep when you can't breathe.

ed called me late last night to ask me if i wanted to go out for a drink. i was still all excited about my shopping trip, and he owes me a drink or two or probably more... so i obliged. we had a good time. talked about pretty much the same things we always talk about... maybe a new topic or two... and he told me there was an ivy sighting over the weekend. hrm.

yeah, i have really put off taking my drugs this morning. i can't wait any longer. allergies are bad.

[now playing: doug martsch - 'now you know']

30 SEP 2002 - 9.27p
just returned home from a very productive shopping trip with steph. we both made many purchases, ranging from spooky bat pajama bottoms to underwear to shoes. it was a good time... i need to shop more often, i think. i even bought my mom a present. she was happy.

speaking of happiness... i talked to lovely lil' jen tonight. she ever so graciously agreed to cover for me next wednesday. this means i can go to doug martsch in columbus with tony. yay! i'll probably have to pick up a friday night for jen... but that's okay.

30 SEP 2002 - 12.46p
i did well on my advertising test... just like i knew i did. the one girl in my group for the big project has some wacky ideas sometimes... she's really excited about the project (i haven't given it any thought, really... and neither has the other girl in our group) and is slightly a little too into it, if you ask me.

it's nice outside. since i have absolutely nothing to do with the rest of my day, i am going to go and put newt out with the racehorse herd... and then possibly give him a bath. he's had maybe one bath this year with not showing and all, so he's pretty gross. then i will really have nothing to do after that... except call lil' jen and see if she'll work next wednesday for me so i can see doug martsch in columbus. she owes me one.

maybe i'll go shopping tonight.

[now playing: the breeders - 'pod']

30 SEP 2002 - 8.10a
i'm a little sad that lacey neglected to mention the puppet show from the other night after the big movie debut. it involved two misfits dolls (action figures?), a big pumpkin, a pokemon thing, and a ghost... and me and paul h (and later on, ezra), crammed behind lacey's entertainment center. i was laughing too hard to do anything productive, so i stood up and played the part of the laughing, blushing giant girl. i'm sure lacey would have told the story better than i, but she didn't and i am lame. lacey kept commanding that we "entertain her" even though we had just seen the most entertaining movie ever.

i am buying a purse made out of llama wool (not to be confused with llama school!). i'm not sure how i feel about that, but it's a cute little handbag.

the reducing smoking campaign is going fairly well. i kind of took a couple days off last week due to the gbv shows... and then had a very minor, slight relapse this weekend. but yesterday, i was back on track with a solid six. i really have to try harder.

[now playing: guided by voices - 'under the bushes under the stars']

29 SEP 2002 - 11.05a
oh my god... i can't believe i forgot to talk about the puppet show. maybe lacey will say something about it.

29 SEP 2002 - 11.03a
oh yeah... happy birthday to the canadian formerly known as the canadian. i don't think you read this very often, and i know you're not into your birthday. you'll just have to suffer.

29 SEP 2002 - 10.03a
the premier of midnight skater was a smashing success. i haven't laughed so hard at a movie in forever... it was far better than their previous effort, teenage zombie house massacre. it had everything... blood, guts, excellent special effects, drugs, sex, and a ninja. oh, i can't wait to see it again. it might have narrowly edged its way in between buffalo 66 (which will probably never be replaced as my favorite film) and battle royale.

going to canfield with joanne was okay. i had to drive there and back because she had this surgery on her foot. newt and i could've totally been in the points in the amateur hunter under saddle... gah. oh well, i don't want to push him just yet.

28 SEP 2002 - 9.52a
wow, what a funny night. i went to tony's after work and we hung out and talked about stuff for a really long time. i honestly don't know anybody else who can get so excited about gbv setlists. it makes me laugh just to think about it. tony is very, very cool and his first show was also michael jackson at the cleveland stadium... talk about a strange coincedence. anyhow, i probably stayed too late and kept him awake, but it really was a good time.

i'm going to leave for canfield in a little bit, i think. then out to see newt in the afternoon... then stuff to do in kent tonight. hopefully no one will get puked on.

27 SEP 2002 - 4.25p
i love how this is still good a couple months after first seeing it, and after watching it a hundred times. i had part of it stuck in my head today, so i just watched it four times. yay.

27 SEP 2002 - 12.04p
i totally passed my advertising test. i rule the school.

in regards to my entry below this one, david had a few things to say about the lonesome organist incident:

Do you remember the story of why he's an asshole? It's not so much that he was mean to Amy. I was mostly thrilled by his performance, and so when he came near us after the show Amy and I approached him and were all "wow, you were great" ... he just sort of rolled his eyes, gave a sarcastic nod, and kept walking. Asshole.

Maybe it's just that he's aware of the fact that he's totally insane and figures that if anyone claims to actually like him, it's just in the "ooh, look at the crazy orgainst man" sense.

But yeah, every time Amy and I ever mentioned him after that, the word "asshole" had to come up. Because that's pretty much what we called him as he walked away.

thanks, david. i was obviously too afraid to approach the crazy organist man. i have MEAN ORGAN RADAR.

tomorrow night i am heading to kent for the first time in what feels like a really long time. there is a movie premier and then some bands to follow. yip!

27 SEP 2002 - 12.01a
studying is so overrated. yeah, that's why i totally flunked my bio exam today, and why i'm totally going to not live up to my potential in advertising tomorrow. oh well, at least i had that curve-throwing A last week.

talked to tony tonight... t'was fun. he mentioned the lonesome organist, which was so crazy and weird. i hadn't thought about the lonesome organist in forever. amy and david and i saw him open for pavement in detroit at st. andrew's hall... in... '99, i'm guessing? anyhow, i guess the story is the lonesome organist was mean to amy. now whenever she thinks of him (which isn't often, i'm guessing), she immediately thinks "asshole."

okay. back to studying... kind of.

[now playing: the flaming lips - 'the soft bulletin']

26 SEP 2002 - 1.21p
you know, fuck studying for biology. i'll just look over my notes quickly in a bit. it's not my major, it's the last irrelevant class i am ever going to have to take... so, fuck it. i just want to pass.

i've got maybe a paragraph of my paper done so far. oh, i'm trying really hard on that, too.

and of course, just when i thought my life couldn't get any weirder... it did.

i'm watching a belle and sebastian video amy told me to download... it's of their performance at the benicasm festival. pretty good so far. back to my paper...

26 SEP 2002 - 9.26a
the paper is no more written than it was when i was bitching about it last night. i am also no more enlightened on the subject of shitty biology or whatever it is i have the exam in today. i give up.

yeah, i give up. i need a drink.

25 SEP 2002 - 11.22p
i am not capable of writing a paper tonight. or studying for that exam i have tomorrow. i have got to sleep. i'm too tired to even want to smoke... that's kinda cool, though.

i know i'm really going to be pissed when i'm doing my paper at the last possible second, after studying for the exam for five or ten minutes, tops. i suck.

but i'm smart. i received my first exam of the semester back yesterday. highest grade in the class, threw off the curve. i love messing things up like that. i'm all for throwing off the curve.

25 SEP 2002 - 4.46p
wow, so a couple weeks ago i emailed the trader vic guy that sells all the gbv stuff (you can find the link to trader vic on the gbv website) because he had something about bob pollard writing one of the songs on the amps album. my copy didn't say anything about bob writing any of the songs, and paul cox didn't know anything about it, either... so i emailed the guy and finally got a reply today. check this shit out...

Meghan,
This was probably the reason Bob & Kim aren't friends anymore. Kim claimed it was a mistake made by the record company and on later releases the "mistake" was corrected. On my UK import of the vinyl lp it does state "All songs written by Kim Deal except "I Am Decided" by R. Pollard and K. Deal". Originally Bob wrote the song & Kim recorded the original GBV version at Easley Studios in Memphis but it did not end up on a GBV release. Bob, Kim & I were all out drinking together at the Walnut Hills Bar one night when Kim asked Bob if she could "have" the song in exchange for her recording & producing of the GBV songs recorded at Easley studios (Bob owed her ,000 for her labor). I'm not sure if this was a mis-understanding or if Kim thought Bob agreed to sell her the song outright, but Bob thought she wanted co-writing credits, since she had re-written some of the music & recorded it for the then titled "Tammy & the Amps" lp she was working on. I still have the original GBV version on a demo tape & it is a little different than the amps version. I know for a fact that Bob wrote the song, since I was there for the whole ordeal. It makes me wonder if Kim wrote all her other songs or if she bought some of them from other writers. I hope this info helps.
thanks,
Vic.

i emailed him right back, thanking him for the info. interesting story, eh?

24 SEP 2002 - 10.47p
one thing to add about gbv... they did not cover "baba o'riley" the second night, either. the first night was "she loves you" and the second night was "a hard day's night" (which we also heard at cwru). interesting. the who was such a staple for such a long time.

24 SEP 2002 - 10.17p
HAPPY MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY, AMY!!!! amy is tattooed and HOT!!

okay. anyhow. gbv last night. yes, i am insane. today was difficult. i was tired. veeeeerrrrrrry tired. but s'all good... it was worth it. i love that band so very much. i'm not sure if i really have anything else to add... i know i didn't talk about last night's show very much in my previous entry... but as hard as it might be to believe, i'm a little gbv-ed out. i know bob said something about wanting to puke, and that made me laugh. let's hear it for being drunk! YEAH!

oh, i ran into mr. headband for the second consecutive night. and i also ran into sam from the mantis (no pooping), which was odd considering he's always reminded me of bob.

i made a chiropractor appointment for newt. he's been going exceptionally well lately... i'm thrilled. it almost feels like i have my old horse back again. i'm still going lightly on the work, jumped a teeny tiny jump a couple of times the other day. he was thrilled. i probably won't seriously start jumping him until spring (if i even jump him seriously again). so, anyhow... the chiro vet is coming out... and we're going to try acupuncture, maybe! exciting!

i don't know if there's anything else going on. if there was a gbv show in town tonight, i would sadly probably be there. but back to real life!

24 SEP 2002 - 2.41a
i am insane. two nights in a row has taken its toll on me, yet here i am. oh well, i guess i need something to do while i brush my teeth.

so, tonight was great. less crowded than last night, but still a super night. got to hear many songs we didn't hear last night, plus a few for the second night in a row (most importantly "cut-out witch."). i am much more sober than i was last night. met up with tim beforehand... had a lovely evening, many thanks to him. met another gbv nerd at the show (tony, i believe... i'm sure he won't mind me calling him a nerd... tonight was show number twenty for him!).

so, yeah. i'm really tired. goodnight.

23 SEP 2002 - 11.08a
no school for me today. i'm going to take a nap soon.

some other highlights from the show last night which i forgot to mention are as follows: bob talking about greg dulli, saying that his head was too big to fit on the grog shop stage. and then, immediately following that, he started talking about kim deal. anybody who knows me relatively well will know that hearing those two names in the same between-songs interlude was enough to make me actually want to wet my pants... even if he was saying some not-so-nice things about mr. greg dulli. sigh. then there was some comment about gbv being the petrified forest of rock. that made me laugh for some reason.

still feeling a little hungover. i should probably eat something. i'm actually excited about tonight, though.

23 SEP 2002 - 9.46a
ed just called trying to solicit something he was calling a breakfast potato. this is just proof that both of us are losing our minds.

23 SEP 2002 - 8.56a
ugh. i have no idea what i was thinking when i bought that ticket last night. i am hungover as fuck this morning. baaaaad headache. i'm also quite tired. luckily i only have one class.

if anybody wants a ticket for tonight's show, let me know. sheezus. i don't know if i can do it two nights in a row. i'm getting old.

23 SEP 2002 - 2.47a
that might've been the best gbv show ever... and i have seen them a hundred times. i bought a ticket for tomorrow, and i will be going alone if i don't find someone else to meet up with... but you know, i don't care. this is the best band ever and i'd be stupid to miss them in a tiny club the second night in a row, in my hometown. they played a lot of good songs... cut out witch, back to the lake, fair touching, teenage fbi, tractor rape chain, my valuable hunting knife, game of pricks, a salty salute, pop zeus, submarine teams, everywhere with helicopter, blah, blah, blah. if you weren't there, you totally missed out. and for the first time in YEARS, i did not hear them cover the who. they covered the beatles instead (i know they covered them at the case show, too, but really... no baba o'riley!!!!)....

until tomorrow... (someone should go with me!!!!!!!!)

22 SEP 2002 - 6.50p
thank god for ed. everyone should have a friend half as good as he is... he totally rearranges his life for me whenever i run into a snag.

it's effing freezing outside!! tonight is the first night newt is wearing pajamas. he was not happy when i put his sheet on... but it's chilly! no skirt for me tonight! brrrr...

i should shower and go run errands.

21 SEP 2002 - 11.35p
anyone reading this who would like to go to gbv tomorrow and who can actually go, please let me know. i am in somewhat of a desperate situation and i have an extra ticket which you can just have. i feel like i have completely exhausted my sources... almost.

i just got home. i went out after work for a drink with marcy. i had a decent time... ended up talking to some boy with a misfits tattoo on his bald (shaven) head. he was impressed that i knew what it was, as most people "think it's just a skull." duh. i swear, though, he was not the type of person i would expect to run into at an "irish" sports bar. gag. i did have a good time, though. love marcy dearly. just one of those goofy nights and i would've stayed much longer (felt good to drink) if i didn't have gbv tomorrow. however, the chances of me going to gbv (despite the fact that i have two tickets that are already PAID FOR) seems completely slim to none after an email i got from lacey. gah!

i'm feeling a little stressed.

21 SEP 2002 - 11.16a
i personally have nothing new to report. my life is boring.

imperial teen has unofficially announced the non-touring status of their drummer/vocalist/sometimes bass player, lynn. she's getting married. so, on tour this fall, replacing lynn will be patty schemel, who you may or may not remember drumming for hole. hmmm. should be interesting.

ooh. my allergies are bad.

20 SEP 2002 - 1.08p
thanks to the canadian formerly known as the canadian for wowing me with his new car. i am absolutely in love with his car. it is all i have been talking about today.

i just had some not very good chinese food for lunch... it wasn't bad, but i've had better. my fortune reads: this is a good time to consider formally helping others.

i have no plans tonight. i don't even have to work. yay.

19 SEP 2002 - 2.06p
i got this email from john... fucking asshole...

I can't get enough of your site. www.nakedomalley is like porn or something. I go from my news to that. I am upset when you don't put other meaningless ramblings on it.

like i said to him, MY RAMBLINGS ARE NOT MEANINGLESS, ASSHOLE.

19 SEP 2002 - 10.39a
hi, john. i know whenever you look at my site, you know? can't get enough of it, huh?

19 SEP 2002 - 9.35a
i've decided to call this entry claws out: because i am a jerk. this morning i received an email. want to read it?

Hey O'Malley...

How are you? Still upset with me? I just wanted to say I liked your Spoon photos. I have decided to buy Super Furry Animals tickets instead of GBV ones so that I can hang out with my friend. So hopefully you will be taking pictures of the GBV show so I can see how it went. Have a good week, and have fun at the show.

-JS
-John

i'm sure everybody knows john is not on santa's "nice list." i'm not either (i am a jerk), so this was the email i replied with:

Hey.

This has nothing to do with me be upset or whatever. It totally has everything to do with you being a bad person. Really... I'm doing great. I just got to see one of my favorite bands, my horse is going well, school is fine, I love my dog, I love my friends, I have another TWO shows with another one of my favorite bands to look forward to. I'm broke as fuck, but hey, what's money, anyway?

No, I'm not taking pictures at the GBV shows. The last thing I need is another 200 pictures of Bob Pollard. And you know, it's not really fun taking pictures. I'm sure the Case pictures are better than anything in the grog shop would be, anyway... although I think I'm figuring a few things out about my camera.

Have fun hanging out with your friend at that dumb show. I hope you don't have to screw him over at the last minute!! Also, I hope he PAYS YOU FOR THE TICKET.

Was that subtle?
Meghan.

yep. i'm a big jerk. i'm laughing about it now though, and i'm pretty sure i was laughing about it as i was writing it... thinking of ways to make it meaner or whatever (i had to add "dumb" to the line about him going to that show).

in other news, amy has decided to get a haircut that looks like THIS!!!

18 SEP 2002 - 10.03p
nothing terribly exciting today... at least nothing that compares to the excitement that is spoon except for the joy i received in learning about the fun times amy is having with her new friend rusty. i found rusty hanging around at work, so i sent him off to live with amy... her birthday is coming up... and she's such a dear... i just had to send him to live with her. hopefully he won't cause too much trouble! i hear he's taken a liking to the bottle... uh oh!

17 SEP 2002 - 9.30p
i'm starting this entry at 9.30, but i bet it takes much longer. i am very much multi-tasking at the moment, but i am a woman so that is easy for me. men have problems with such things, according to one of my teachers.

so last night was spoon. sigh. i love them. some boring band played first (although i'm sure their mothers love them) and then john vanderslice played. i'm not sure anything could have prepared me for the drummer, who incidentally is from minneapolis and drums for kid dakota, a band that david and his pals admire. christopher was a very nice man, and went out of his way to shake my hand while i was innocently sitting on the stage in between bands. he was setting up, i felt a tap, and there he was. sigh. his technique is very interesting, but everybody seemed very impressed. i got some notes from him. they're kinda difficult to read... but interesting once you can make out his writing. hmm. i was baffled by them, but happy to receive them, i guess.

spoon came on shortly after the vanderslice/christopher explosion. they tried opening with "paper tiger" but it didn't really work when britt's mic wasn't working. so, he had a drink and tried playing the song again after some cord adjusting. when that didn't work, he got a hand from a friendly grog shopper. so, instead of playing "paper tiger", they started a few songs down on the setlist (i know because i have it) and then played what they skipped in the encore, skipping a couple of songs listed in the encore. by the way, if you don't like the way i'm randomly inserting links to the pictures, then fuck you!

anyhow, there's a lot to the story. spoon is a great band and i love britt. david likes this picture the best. it's cool, yeah. i was having a good time messing around with my camera at the show... i took a lot of pictures but i only uploaded twenty or so for your viewing pleasure. just one or two more.

after the show, i realized that the setlist is a recycled piece of paper, perhaps part of spoon's personal travel itinerary... it was a computer printout about hotels in the lawrence, kansas area. i'm not sure if they're playing in the area or just looking for a layover or what, but i was thinking of pointing them in the direction of my fan. just kidding, erin.

i think that's about it, yeah. i'd like to add that i did not in fact lose all my motivation to quit smoking. i just had a momentary lapse of judgement, and somehow forgot that my current goal is merely to reduce the amount of cigarettes i smoke. i am doing that quite successfully. instead, this morning, i was just feeling quite frustrated because i was only thinking about the ultimate goal of quitting, which seems so far away to me right now. thanks for the support, everybody.

17 SEP 2002 - 2.46p
for those of you looking for the party pictures, since i am too lazy to put up an entire entry with individual links, they are here, all in one place for your viewing enjoyment. you can just click on the links to view them there.

i'm sure i could've made a splendid entry detailing my love for battle royale, but alas, i am far too lazy.

spoon pictures up later tonight!!

17 SEP 2002 - 10.52a
you know, fuck quitting smoking. i've lost all motivation today.

spoon was great! i have fifty trillion pictures to share, which i hopefully will do soon. i guess i have to get around to the party pictures first, though. i will.

the drummer for john vanderslice was completely insane. i loved him. he shook my hand prior to playing and gave me notes. we'll talk about that later. but spoon was really great, despite some technical difficulties early in the evening. i got their setlist because i am cool.

they played nothing off of telephono (wah), a fair amount of stuff from sneaks, and a lot from the two recent albums. oh yeah, and "mountain to sound." i love them. it was pretty crowded, which will always come as a surprise to me. i'll try to get the pictures up soon... some of them are really great.

16 SEP 2002 - 12.36p
tonight is spoon! yip! i'm excited, even given the circumstances of the last few days. i'm ready to throw back a straub or two or more and have a well-deserved good time. john sent me an email this morning pointing me in the direction of an article in the plain dealer about the spoon. thanks, john.

i'd like to extend thanks to several people for already offering their support in my quest to kick my nasty habit. thank you to w. "the canadian" (not to be confused with the canadian formerly known as the canadian, although i'm sure he'd support me, too)... although i did not listen to the song you sent me, i did hum it in my head on my way to class when i was thinking about smoking (at that point, i'd only smoked one cigarette, when normally i would have already had three). thanks to eric for a lovely supportive email, outlining the benefits i already feel like i'm receiving after two drastically reduced days of smoking. thanks to amy, who i'm hoping will join me on my crusade. and last but not least, thanks go to ed (who i don't think even reads this!) for helping me with my program.

16 SEP 2002 - 12.15a
i'd like to make an official announcement. think of it as a press release. i am officially quitting smoking. starting saturday the 14th, i began cutting down. i smoked five cigarettes all day. today i smoked six. i'm going to try to keep it in the five/six range for a week or so, then i'll try to cut it down even more. then after that, if i am not cured, i will begin the patch... the lowest level was suggested to me, because at that point, i will barely be a smoker.

why am i doing this? because i want to feel good. i'm actually very confident that i can do it. i know i will have some difficulty at spoon and gbv, but i'm going to allow myself to smoke as needed there. if i am nothing more than a casual/social smoker for a while, i'm totally cool with that, too.

yeah, i'll get to the pictures eventually.

15 SEP 2002 - 11.41a
i have to work today. blah. i didn't really go out last night... just went for mexican with ed, which was fine. we had fun. he's nice and i'm pretty sure he's going to go to spoon with me, just because he doesn't want me to go alone.

here is a picture from the party. and here is another. that's it for now. i just thought those were the most important for the time being. why? because my tattoo and battle royale and lacey's tongue are a few of the greatest things around, fools. and because the picture of me kissing my beloved battle royale is just very sweet.

i got two emails this morning. what was from david telling me how great spoon was in minneapolis last night... he said they played all the stuff he wanted to hear off of 'girls can tell' and that britt seemed very nice and stuff. yay. i love spoon. i love britt.

i also got an email from john. i'm not really sure i understand it. he said that he would have bought gbv tickets but had no credit/debit cards since his shit was stolen. hmm, when i bought the tickets, i paid cash. then he goes on to say he's not laughing at me, which was odd considering i found his tone quite belittling and yet amused last night on the phone. then he admits that he's let me down in the past, but he never intended it, but that i penalize him when he has to alter plans. well, this is the first real time i think i've done anything mean to him, probably aside from getting salty for a few days. and to be honest, i don't really care. sure, he says that he can go to gbv now... but what happens when he has to "alter his plans" the night before? but i don't understand what his life is like (thank god), so i just wouldn't get it. john, you are not trustworthy. i don't have to understand your life to know about your character.

15 SEP 2002 - 1.24a
if you're looking for pictures, my friend eric says this site has cool pictures. if you're waiting for party pictures, keep waiting. and yes, the links on lacey's site are no good... and she also spelled my name wrong on the link to this site... so chances are you didn't get here from there.

had some issues with john tonight. i guess he finally read the email i sent him. oh well.

14 SEP 2002 - 2.27p
eek! i just found out imperial teen is scheduled to play the grog shop on october 27! mark your calendars!

pictures to come later!

14 SEP 2002 - 11.00a
pictures are coming. just sit tight... since i couldn't unload them when i got home, i'm a little behind.

14 SEP 2002 - 2.16a
'battle royale' is the second best movie ever (to 'buffalo 66', duh!).

pictures from tonight's par-tay royale will be up eventually... for some reason my camera will not unload... or the computer is effed... or something.

battle royale!

13 SEP 2002 - 1.46p
school was fine. PR has officially been dropped. i have returned to being an asshole. i have no idea how i managed to stay nice for so long. lacey has new blog stuff. check it out. umm... tonight is her party. monday is still spoon, i might just go alone. my allergies are bad. i'm not in a good mood. i want a nap.

12 SEP 2002 - 8.26p
i'm sure john will get the email i just sent him, but for all of you wondering, i just gave the "other" gbv ticket to my friend eric. sorry, john. i do feel really bad about it... i'm just fed up.

hey, wait! did i just screw somebody over? look out!

12 SEP 2002 - 8.08p
if i ever become one of those people who chronically makes plans with friends then breaks them moments before, leaving them hanging and grasping for alternatives at nearly the last minute, somebody please shoot me. you know, john... i'm not even going to say anything else. if you really want that gbv ticket, please get a hold of me. if there is even a two percent chance you can't go, also get a hold of me so i can give it to somebody else.

also, should anybody want to see spoon on monday, i am making a desperate plea for a companion... thanks to my good friend, john.

you know, this is probably payback for screwing over so many people. seems like i'm the one who gets consistantly screwed over these days. I RULE!

12 SEP 2002 - 9.02a
i think i want to drop my PR class. this is a terribly difficult decision for me because i really do like the PR kind of stuff... but i really do not enjoy my PR instructor. it's probably too late for me to add another class... not technically, but i just can't imagine doing that three weeks into the semester. but this PR class... the woman who teaches it is involved in fundraising. she thinks very highly of herself and the only things she talks about are herself, when she worked for some park system, and how she raises millions of dollars for the non-profit she works for now. okay... don't get me wrong, but i really fail to see what begging rich people for money has to do with business PR/marketing/advertising. i have not learned a damn thing about PR since the class began, and when it came time to discuss "careers in PR", she went around the room and said to us, "so what do you guys do?" um... huh? i have NEVER dropped a class before and i feel like a complete loser for having to do so... especially since it will just put me another four hours away from graduating (which will also piss my mom off, i'm sure). but if i'm going to be doing this for the rest of my life, or at least for a good chunk of my life, i'd kind of like to know what i'm doing. so far, three weeks into the class, i imagine all i've learned is how to talk about oneself for TWO HOURS with NO BREAK. i can't get to the drop forms fast enough!

the really sad thing is that i'm sure all these people will trudge along until the end of the semester with this woman. and then when it comes time to give evaluations, they'll all write how great she was. i would've torn her to shreds.

so in case you weren't paying attention... i'm no longer going to have classes until ten on tuesdays and thursdays. i am now only going to be in class until eight.

i'm kind of ashamed at myself, but i feel a little better now. sigh.

11 SEP 2002 - 8.33a
i don't have much time for a real entry, so i will leave you with a poem my friend amy wrote for me.

if yr leg bent
just right
he could follow
you for
miles.

thank you, amy. everybody have a good 11th.

10 SEP 2002 - 10.14a
this is the first morning i have been able to swallow upon waking up. i'm going to take this as a good sign... i don't think i'm going to die anymore. sorry to those of you that hate me.

last night i found out that i am not the only person that can do the leg trick. there is somebody else that can do it, too... in ohio even. i was a little shocked to hear this... i don't know if i should be elated to have finally found one of my own (a la 'bee girl' in that old blind melon video) or if i should feel threatened. i probably shouldn't be threatened... he can't walk up stairs while doing the trick. but i wouldn't be surprised if he had some secret weapon leg trick up his sleeve... like if he could ride a bike while doing it or something. oh, in case you've never seen the leg trick i'm talking about, i can turn my right leg inwards 180 degrees, so that my left foot is pointing north and my right is pointing south, so to speak.

in news, party at lacey's this weekend. be there or else, jerks.

[now playing: pavement - 'wowee zowee']

09 SEP 2002 - 9.33a
when i went to the doctor the other day, i was asked, "on a scale of one to ten, ten being the worst, how bad is the pain you're feeling?" ummm... well, if ten is like my flesh rotting off from the bite of a brown recluse spider (and no, that isn't me), then my west nile virus is like a two. but if ten is the worst throat/head/neck pain i've ever had in my whole life, it was definitely a ten. i just thought it was a stupid question.

i have been taking my antibiotics religiously and i'd like to report that i am feeling a bit better. i have once again barely escaped the clutches of death and i've kicked the ass of the west nile virus. i rule.

in other news, i have to go to school now. have a good day!

08 SEP 2002 - 7.07p
i would just like to say that paul cox likes so many bands that are FAR worse than the mr. t experience. either that or he obviously has not listened to 'love is dead.'

08 SEP 2002 - 10.17a
i don't want to go to work!!!!

i downloaded this sparklehorse song that paul cox liked. i think it sucks. i like their earlier stuff so much better. this song is pretty boring.

that's about it for right now. pretty boring. i'm sick, etc. blah, blah, blah. i have some pictures to add (courtesy of the photographer) later. be patient!

08 SEP 2002 - 12.41a
please keep the ohio university equestrian team in your thoughts or prayers. their intercollegiate equestrian team (this year's national champions!) was based at a barn which burned down. my dear friend jessie (president of the OUET, and NOQHA queen) sent me an email with the following article attached and a brief message that read "we lost it all, meghan." read about it here and the jump to the rest of the article is here. this is really a devasting loss for them and my heartfelt sympathies go out to the team, and to everyone else involved.

i did go to the doctor today... what a joke. well, i know that i do not have strep. i also do not have sinus problems. my right ear is all red, my throat is red, my glands are swollen. this much we do know. so, what is it? obviously west nile. my doctor just wrote me a prescription for antibiotics and told me that if i wasn't better in five days, i have to have tests done. weeee. my doctor was seriously convinced that this was just allergies. um, pains in my knees because of allergies? an ear infection because of allergies? and the sore throat/neck pain i have is not an allergy thing... having suffered from allergies for as long as i can remember, i know what allergy sore throat feels like... and it most certainly does not feel like this.

i was lame tonight. i made a really pathetic attempt to do something, but the pressure in my head sent me home. i can't believe i have to work tomorrow. i bet i don't make it the whole time.

07 SEP 2002 - 12.07p
the wait was too long. i came home. i couldn't sit there with crying infants and old people for god knows how long. let's hope the west nile doesn't kill me before i can make it back after i visit newt.

07 SEP 2002 - 11.07a
i'm sick. i'm going to the doctor.

06 SEP 2002 - 11.24a
i am on the verge of death. i am convinced. my throat is so sore on one side... so sore, in fact, it is affected the entire right half of my face/head/neck (which is a huge area, given the size of my head). i made it to my bio lab like a champ... but decided to skip out on advertising because my throat/face/head/neck is really bothering me. at least in bio, i was doing something... i couldn't sit through a lecture feeling like this. goddamn west nile.

the bio lab was funny... i don't particularly care for science (some stuff is cool, just not my thing, you know?) and given that i haven't taken a biology class in about nine years, i was expecting to have no clue how to use the microscope and whatnot. well, guess what? i probably did more work than the TA, running around and helping people with their labs. completely insane. i was done with mine in a few minutes, which totally threw off my lab partner who was a little asian exchange student girl who thankfully did not pull the "you help me?" that shelley princess and i had to deal with in environmental studies at findlay. if you haven't ever heard that story... shelley princess and i took environmental studies at findlay which consisted of lots of great field trip labs... during the trips, we'd have to run around and fill out worksheets and answer questions. there was some exchange student girl who would follow us like a lost puppy and when she couldn't answer the questions (which was pretty much all of the questions), she'd look at me and shelley and say, "you help me?" then she'd copy our entire lab. word for word. shelley got fed up with it and mentioned it to our teacher, who basically told shelley to keep letting the girl copy our shit. nice, huh?

[now playing: r.e.m. - 'out of time']

06 SEP 2002 - 12.54a
question of the night... why drink bud light for .25 when you can drink newcastle for ?!?! insanity!!!

so, skipped PR and went to kent tonight. gosh, it was so nice to see john again. it's been definitely too long. he's a nice boy. i'm sad to report that from what he said he is now a full fledged smoker, having taken up my beloved parliaments as a hobby. yep, he's got me to blame for that. i feel somewhat guilty, but hey... if he wouldn't have spent the majority of the spring semester stealing my cigarettes, it never would have happened.

it was supposed to be the last pirates' show, but then the cops came to the bar and shit went down. i guess the show was moved to the mantis (no pooping) but john and i split. i'm very sad i didn't get to see the pirates, but at the same time, i have a lab at 8:45. yipes.

05 SEP 2002 - 3.23p
i just wanted to let readers know that i will not be around tonight after class. i'm going to meet up with john (sigh) and lacey in kent. or i have died of west nile. one or the other.

have a good evening...

05 SEP 2002 - 9.06a
i just wanted everybody to know that the west nile virus has not killed me yet. my throat/neck hurts so bad (just on one side) and walking has been difficult... but i do kind of hobble around most mornings because i have the hips of a 96 year old great grandma... but my knees don't feel spectacular or anything.

hey! i feel like shit! i think i'll go hang out where it's dusty and i have to do actualy physical activity involving my legs! and better yet, let me pay for the honor to do so! yay, horse!

tonight i am supposed to cut my PR class to meet john and lacey in kent. thursday is his night for class there... and tonight just so happens to be the pirates' last show... sooooooo... looks like the planets are aligning (or colliding or something)... i guess i kind of have to skip PR now, don't i?

04 SEP 2002 - 11.21p
today paul cox was listening to the judybats. in my collection, i can only find one judybats cd ('pain makes you beautiful') but i know i used to have the one he was listening to ('down in the shacks where the satellite dishes grow'). i must have sold it. or lost it. who knows? but i had to download the mp3 for a song off of it ("our story") as soon as i realized i didn't have it anymore. i'm glad i did. it made me happy. i might download the rest of that album tonight. yay for stealing music!!

i feel like shit. my throat hurts horribly. my neck just feels all swollen in general. and my knees are KILLING me. i could barely walk up and down the stairs at work tonight, they were so bad. i called my mom from work for some sympathy... she told me to go to the hospital and have blood drawn so they could test me for the west nile virus. sheezus! so, now i'm convinced i have it. i have terrible hips, but i have never really had knee problems before (aside from one incident involving myself and a certain person and my car one rainy evening)... so for BOTH of my knees to hurt so badly so suddenly is a little weird. apparently joint pain is a symptom of west nile. rock.

the response for my blog has been quite favorable so far. yay. good job, paul cox.

04 SEP 2002 - 1.07p
it's true. i like my blog. it's very... green. i'm not sure i dislike the greenness of it all, or if it's just going to take some getting used to. either way, i like everything else about it. thank you, paul cox.

i'm going to have to look like a huge jerk in the next couple of days. we have to make groups for my advertising class for a big project. there are two girls in my class that i talk to regularly that seem like fairly nice people. i figured we'd just be in a group together. and then when some girl that i had a class with last semester asked me if i'd join her group (she's smart enough, i guess, but kind of ghetto) i kind of stuttered a bit and said okay. but then the other girls were like, "we should all be in a group." and i was like, "yeah, but they asked me but i do want to be in a group with you guys." so, now i have to tell the ghetto girl that i don't want to be in her group and i feel kind of lame, like i only was in her group until something better came along... when really, i didn't want to be in her group in the first place. gah.

i'm hungry. i have to get horses out.

04 SEP 2002 - 8.12a
having your blog redone by one of your friends in the middle of the night while you sleep is kind of like trading spaces, without doing anything for them in return. at first i thought i looked at the wrong website. but no, it was mine. there is a picture of a toaster, which i am all about. the background is very green. it looks different. do i hate it? no. was i shocked to see it? yes! i think i like it, though. if you don't like it, please send your complaints to paul cox. thank you paul cox! it's going to take me a day or two to adjust.

03 SEP 2002 - 11.19p
so... i got an email from the photographer. i really am having doubts he totally remembers who i am, but since he has pictures of me i probably shouldn't be having doubts. he goes home to california tomorrow, and since i had class until ten, i did not have a chance to give his "celly" a call to possibly meet up with him in kent. oh well... he wants to keep in touch and i don't see what the harm would be.

class is so painful. by the time PR comes around at 8, i am so completely burnt out that i can't even function, let alone pay attention. i need to start drinking coffee... it just blows that the only coffee on campus is complete piss and would give me stomach cramps for the duration of my long evening.

john called me while i was doing work in the library in between classes. i forgot my phone was on, and i felt kind of asshole-ish because i was the only person in the section i was sitting in and my voice was totally carrying across the entire floor, i swear. good to talk to him, though. he promises not to make me cry.

03 SEPT 2002 - 2.48p
paper update: it is brilliant. i am seriously the shit. i rule. yay, me.

i can't wait until i'm far enough along in the year that i can skip my thursday classes and hang out with john and lacey in kent. i love them both.

i think i'm going to get dressed now. ugh. class until ten tonight. i am never going to get used to it. my mom bought me a box of granola bars so i could have a snack. i love her... snacks rule.

[now playing: belle and sebastian - 'tigermilk']

03 SEP 2002 - 1.28p
so, the photographer that was hitting on me the other night in kent has been in touch with lacey via email. apparently he thinks i am "pretty cute" (was he that drunk?) and was wondering if i'm single. too bad you're going back to california tomorrow, photograhper dude. tough luck.

i finished one of my papers in a very timely fashion... now i'm kind of stuck on the other one. i have no idea exactly what it is i'm supposed to be writing about and since i refuse to read any textbooks, i'm probably never going to know. oh well. as long as i turn something in, i'm sure it won't be the worst one in the class. yay for bullshitting! the article i picked is something about raw meat and vegans or something.

i'm going to have lunch now. then attempt to crank out this paper. bah!

02 SEP 2002 - 11.57a
i have no idea what i'm doing today. i should be getting a videotape of my horse, but i guess there's some par-tays going on around town. would be nice to do that, but i just feel like i have a lot to do. i really need to have the horse taped... and i really need to get two short papers done for tomorrow. i should be able to whip through them, it's just a matter of sitting down and actually doing it.

a very special shout out to my man (no longer future husband. i'm gladly giving him up to courtney), small pox for finding this amazing website!!!!! as you may or may not know, i have a thing for doug wilson from trading spaces. hot. especially in the leather pants... normally i would not be attracted to anybody wearing leather pants, but doug is 'H.'

[now playing: guided by voices - 'alien lanes']

01 SEP 2002 - 5.56
happy september. today i finished my big, thick novel that i've been reading all summer pastureside as newt got fat on grass. i turned out (one of paul bunyon's favorite expressions) newt and kid together... they had a good time. played a bit. probably the most activity newt's had in days. they're great friends, as seen here in a photo of them last fall. newt is the one doing the ninja move, in case you didn't know.

i purchased my gbv ticket (and john's, too) for the first of two grog shop shows later this month. very exciting. now if i could only con someone into accompanying me to the second show. hopefully lacey and paul bunyon will follow suit and pick up tickets...

also have spoon to look forward to this month... unfortunately that show will also be at the grog. i'd like to get there somewhat early so i can sit on the stage and take pictures. i'd love to have some pictures of britt. weee.

i'm not sure what's in store for me tonight... i will likely attend a performance by a band we saw at WRUW's studio-a-rama thing. no, not gbv... and not viva caramel, either... the band with the very elvis looking guy. lacey unfortunately did not get a picture taken with him there, which she so desperately wanted. oh, by the way... i forgot to tell lacey (and i think paul h) that when we were talking about the picture of her with the guy with the hat, i thought you guys were talking about this one and not this one.

i'm going to have a salad now. special thanks to my new friend jack cole for bringing this to my attention. ninjas!

31 AUG 2002 - 2.44p
special thanks to my pal eric for sending the following to me:

From the Home Office in Wahoo, Nebraska
Top Ten Canadian Euphemisms For Sex
10. Playing mountie
9. Fur trapping
8. Making Peg whinny
7. Entering parliament
6. Pulling the goalie
5. Doin' it, eh?
4. Putting the "man" in Manitoba
3. High sticking
2. Stuffing a beaver -- the beaver is our national animal
1. Oh, Oh, Oh Canada

that was on letterman the other night, i guess. i got a kick out of it.

eric's birthday is next month... oddly enough on the day as the first gbv show here. keeping fingers crossed that he joins us for it. i can't imagine anything greater than seeing gbv on your birthday... lucky kid.

i forgot to mention that last night, i especially enjoyed supergroup lester doing "doggie" and something about "the newt atomic horse."

31 AUG 2002 - 9.33a
um, where'd the rest of my blog go?! september doesn't start until tomorrow!

31 AUG 2002 - 9.14a
gah. i never have the time to update my blog like i want to. i have a lot to write about right now... and i have to be at the barn at tenish... which means i won't be giving my blog the attention i want to give it.

so, last night was an excellent night of debauchery and whatnot at the mantis (no pooping!). i totally got hit on by some photographer guy that asked if he could take a picture of lacey, paul h, and i. we started talking because i asked if his beer was a guinness (just seemed like an odd choice for beer at the mantis, you know?)... it was. he asked what my name was (i forget his) and what "my boyfriend's" name was. i'm assuming he was talking about paul bunyon and just as soon as he asked me this question, i knew he was going to hit on me. he grew up in kent and lives in burbank, california now, as he is a photographer. he was 33 (really 32). he was trying to take a picture of lacey's spooky tree tattoo without her knowing. he couldn't... then he asked me if i had any tattoos, so of course i had to proudly show him my little buddy. he seemed to like it, proclaiming, "that's a radiohead thing!" sure. he took a picture of it. then he told me that it was hot. "yeah, i know."

he ducked out for some reason or another, told me he'd be back, and i peed, and left because i was tired and had to drive all the way home. oh well. i totally could have done it with him.

it was an enjoyable evening... nice to be out and about after a long, trying week of class and work and horses. i got to see the pirate's new house, complete with bon jovi (i can't explain it, you'd have to see it to appreciate it)... i can't remember what else. oh well. oh yeah, maggie bought us all this chocolate to eat when we got bored at work... and it gave me a heart attack. i had a heart attack most of the night, and then i started drinking and that cured my heart attack.

this entry is really not as cohesive as i'd like it to be. bah. i could've done it a lot better, but i figured i'd rush to get something out while i had a moment. more later, as always.